Image from Full On Style.
Sure, I’m a 30 year-old living in today’s society…of course I have body issues. I’ll admit it – my body issues are pretty bad. I have this skewed vision of how I think I look. I’m constantly comparing myself to overweight women. When ever I see an overweight person, I quickly ask P, “Do I look like that?”. It’s so bad that recently P just says “No” before I can even ask him the question. He knows that I’m sizing these women up to see if they fit the image of what I believe I am.
It’s sick. Even though I realize that I don’t look the way I think I do, I still can’t stop envisioning myself in the way I do. Why do I think this way? Clearly I’m not the only person who thinks like this.
I’ve never been truly disgusted with the way I look. Do I feel sexy? Not particularly. Do I feel grotesque? Definitely not. But as time progresses, my original reason for starting my weight loss journey is changing. Originally I wanted to lose weight just to be healthy. Now I find myself wanting to shop for cute clothes in stores I rarely step foot into. Of course, that’s just the pressures of society creeping into my mindset – I still desire to be healthy overall. The cute clothes will come with that (I hope!).